When I am writing these lines, I can describe myself with following common States (Experiences), with which a man or a person can usually be described.
I am 48 years old. I was born in Russia, in Leningrad (It is Saint-Petersburg now). Currently I also live in Russia. During my life from infancy to these years, I received a variety of knowledge from other people and other systems of training (kindergarten, school, institute, authorities, not authorities) that changed the State of my Mind along this path. Some events occurred, the sun rose and sat down, I went to bed and woke up, and at each following moment I was different, but at the same time I was the same.
Haven't not you noticed that at yourself before?
The search for new knowledge that goes beyond the concept of the material world transmitted so hard from mouth to mouth from one generation to another has always been inherent to me. Since childhood I have been attracted to the eastern teachings o by their distinction from the Western tradition. I have never been religious (in the generally accepted sense of the word) and did not consider that there is some true religion that can explain everything.
The main thing for me was that I accepted my own changes that allowed my convictions and views on the world to change. At the beginning I thought that there was something unbreakable, a certain set of rules and stereotypes that can form the basis of an understanding of the universe and of all life in general. After all, everyone around me made me believe in their knowledge as an apparent fact. This «truth» was confirmed by their experience or, what it was much more often, by the experience of other complete strangers drawn from the News, books, films, kitchen conversations or gossip in smoking rooms from the same «authorities» as they were by themselves.
All this knowledge lays in the field of the separation of oneself and the world as a whole. One was opposed to the other. They talked about suffering, struggle, sacrificing, efforts, achievements, the ability to take something away from the others or inability, about the hard destiny, being guilty of each individual and all in general, about injustice to a person, that is to me and so on.
For a long time, I tried to imitate these «correct» rules of relationship with the world. I copied standard behavior patterns, tried, achieved, received fleeting joys, did not achieve, get upset, fell into depression... no... no... Suicide wasn’t for me. And the brain, naturally separated from everything, yelled: «God, for what! » So, I went to pray to the furious God for forgiveness, fussing over, where I had sinned and for what I should have repented this time.
Running in a circle, which was typical for divided consciousness, continued. The brain constantly repeated «it was necessary to do something! », and I tried to improve the efficiency of my doing constantly. The higher the efficiency rose the deeper I was in the shit. I thought the world played a cruel joke with me. Again a new round with increased efficiency and again I was totally fucked in some area of my life. So I spent 47 years of my life in a state of deep separation (It is tuned with «spent my life in the deep shit», isn’t it?)
The way from separateness to the consciousness of the unity of all things was born by the desire to raise the effectiveness of an action. It was rather odd. I kept exploring various systems, conceptions, beliefs and other patterns of a person’s attitude to the world. It was my first time I had heard about such concepts as the unity of all Being, field of possibilities or uncertainty, doing and not doing, awareness, acceptance, intention, meditation, observation and observers, true self and mystical term enlightenment, which even those who are called enlightened say it does not exist.
Finally all this «broke my brain», destroyed all the usual concepts about the world order and cleaned up a field for a search. It was not enough for me only to accept this or that concept, a set of terms that I should have simply accepted as a truth. I did not want to believe. I wanted to know. Moreover, many of the words that described certain concepts had ambiguous meaning for me. In fact, I perceived by the edge of perception that they all talk about one thing. And this one thing is very simple and elementary and should lie on the surface and colored by no conventions or concepts.
If this one thing exists, then it should unite all things, but I did not see what it was. I was watching, analyzing, and learning the modern views of science, theory and concepts, philosophy, words of deeply religious people, various techniques and practices, and so on. I felt that there was something about all this that can accurately describe all Being (all things), thereby proving their Unity. And this joint thing is always nearby.
I saw that many people, being mathematicians, physicists, philosophers, and deeply religious people could notice and realize this State «to be at One» with the Universe, each in his own way, based on his world perception and skills (I deliberately don’t use the word «Experience» here. Why I do that I will tell you later). Their descriptions of this unity were based either on their Knowledge or offered as something given, as an axiom. This awareness was based either on the scientific approach and understanding the fundamental laws of physics and mathematics, or on deep meditation, or on facts that are completely mystical from the ordinary person ‘s point of view: such as voice in the head, near-death experience, altered states of consciousness, etc.
But I am an ordinary person who wants to see THIS simple THING that will allow me to comprehend the Unity of Being (Life) and me as a part of this Being (Life). But Nothing of the above described happened to me. I am not an expert in any special knowledge. I am not engaged in mystical practices. I was not on the verge of life and death. I am an ordinary person. We were united only by being quite different people. Many of them lived in different times, some of them at the same time. It is clear that there must be something available for me and you and each of us. So what was I going to see?
And so, it happened, I realized the point... It was so easy that I just can’t understand how I have not noticed it before. I have known it all the time, it was all the time in front of me, and it can describe the whole world. And it is just one word, one concept that is absolutely neutral in its essence...
I can say with all confidence and awareness that everything is One Life.
And a state (Condition, Experience) unites all things. All Things are a state. Everything is a state. Any part of Being, any part of Life is a state.
The State is an absolutely neutral concept if you do not add other concepts to it. The state, condition can be understood by the usual man. The State (Condition) can be observed. You can identify yourself with the state. The State (Condition) can be tried on. You can strive for it, you can experience it. The State (Condition) can be investigated. The State can be all! Because everything is a State.
The reader of this text will say, «So what's the use to me of this? » He will say, «You are not quite right. All this is complete nonsense! I don’t think so. Why does the author spend my time at all? »
That ‘s it, isn’t it? I will ready to consider any opponent’s arguments. Prove to me that anything in this world is not a State. YOU are likely to find something that will prove the unity of all things or its separation during the process of these evidences.
But from here and according to the order I will consider Being itself and its parts (not everything, of course, Being is infinite) from the very beginning and part after part, but how else because All Being (all Things) is a State.
There will be talked about the benefits and personal acquaintance with a State, and the practical application. A lot of things are going to be...
If I am not right, prove that to me… Write your comment below this Chapter.
This text is translated by Elena Malikova.